Update 2: I’m on my way back…

0:01Hello. And how are you doing? I just wanted to give you another quick update because I did an update

0:08a few weeks ago and I realised that I haven't done anything since.

0:12And first of all, I'm doing so much better.

0:17I'm not quite ready to come back and pile everything back on and put all the pressure on yet. I

0:24know life gives us pressure anyway, but sometimes we're not ready for that pressure. And I realised

0:32from the past my pattern of being overwhelmed over promising and doing too much, and then my body just says,

0:39no, I'm done with that and gives up on me. And the last couple of weeks, I've been really quite

0:46poorly. And this past few days, I'm so much better, feel better, I've got energy. I'm not falling asleep

0:54every two hours. I'm sleeping again at night. I'm back to meditating a couple of times a day, which for

1:01some reason I really stopped doing because I was getting overwhelmed. I was thinking that I couldn't do it. So

1:07I got back to taking a step back, practicing what I invite you to do, and really just

1:15nailing down on those things that really do help us. Because this human condition doesn't come and go. We're human.

1:23Thoughts come, thoughts arise and illness arises. The body breaks down, the body

1:31improves and then breaks down and overwhelm happens. Life happens, and it's how we deal with these things on a

1:38daily basis. And being paralysed does make it a little more difficult at times. So I just want to say

1:45thank you to anybody's bought me a coffee, left a review that still listens to my inner peace meditations on

1:52the other podcast or on this one. Listen to my podcast and the messages I get. You guys are absolutely

2:00amazing. Thank you to you. I've had some wonderful emails and wonderful messages. You keep me going

2:08in so many ways and. But I'm deliberately not rushing back and

2:16piling on all that pressure onto me.

2:18Yes, I have the tools to deal with the most darkest times, but, you know, I can deal with the

2:26stuff in my head I can plow through, but there's no prizes for that. There's no prizes for being the

2:33strongest victim in the yard, if you know what I mean. The prize is for just ourselves

2:41inside, when we find that balance between what's going on outside and what's going on inside. And the balance wasn't

2:48there for me. And in return, I was letting myself down and letting other people down and piling on the

2:56pressure. But I ended up quite poorly to the point where I Spent almost a

3:04week barely eating and just really poorly and my body was catching every infection that I could imagine.

3:12You know, infections were watching me go by and go, oh, we can have him, he's looking weak at the

3:17moment. It was, it was quite bad for a time. But anyway, I'm here, I'm doing

3:25well and next week I'll be back recording. I've done a couple of little videos on my Youtube

3:32with no pressure, a couple of meditations and I've just, I sold a couple of items I had

3:40and I've just bought some meta glasses

3:45and I'm gonna go live and do some videos with them and it's gonna be quite interesting. So I've just

3:50done a video about me unboxing them over on my Youtube channel if you want to sneak preview of that.

3:57I don't know if you want to do it or not. Slightly different. I just share stuff on my Youtube

4:02channel that

4:04just makes my life a little bit easier. Things that. Whether it's inanimate objects or

4:11um different things. But

4:15yeah, I'm just, I'm just having a little fun at the moment. Just no pressure on myself and I was

4:22putting the pressure on too much and therefore I'm not helpful to anybody at that point. So look, thank you

4:29to. If you're still listening to this podcast three or four minutes in, you must be one of my diehard

4:37friends because just

4:40deeply grateful to you and I love you and take care and I will see you next

4:48week.